My self monitored gonal-F cycle
If there was one thing I’ve always wanted in my life is babies twin babies. Call me crazy. Why are doctors so afraid of people like me?
This month we graduated from Clomid to Gonal-F and my hopes went up with it. The pharmacy delivered my 900IU redi-ject pen and I was sure that was a baby in a vial. I spent the first 2 weeks of this cycle poking myself with a needle and with each injection my hopes that I would have more than 1 follicle growing went up. On CD 11 my dose was adjusted from 50IU to 75IU. On CD13 I went in for my scan and although I was super stoked that my lining was finally waking the fuck up, it was so disappointing to see that I only had 1 eggie. What’s wrong with this fucking doctor? Why can’t he up my dose just a little bit so I can have 2 fucking follicles? Is that too much to ask? I’m not trying to be the new octa-mom you fucker!
So, today I’m 8dpo and I still don’t know if it worked or not. I guess I have 1 more week of misery and obsessive blogging until I can finally pee on the stick. Never thought I would ever long to pee on a stick. Normally I just pee on myself… not that I long for that but it just seems to happen. Is the fact that I’m daydreaming of George Clooney in inappropriate positions a positive sign?
It’s been decided that next month I’ll be my own doctor. I have 225IU left from my 1st pen + 900IU from the new pen and I’ll be giving me 100IUs for 11 days straight, with the trigger on CD13. I’m not gonna say it’s all fun and games, I know the risks I’m taking. I’ll be unmonitored so I could develop OHSS and not even know… but 100IU is not that much… some women have 300… I’ll survive and hopefully end up with babies in my belly.
Let’s make it rain bitch! OMG, am I delirious?